Mon, 07 Mar 2005 05:25:48 GMT

yeah so its been a while since i have written in here..well not too much has changed i guess.. the last entry i wrote was in what..MAY last year..and it just happened not to long ago too..its wierd how you can feel the same way again and again...and each time u feel something so new and more hurtful than before..but whatever time goes by and things get better! i have been dancing a lot more than before..and i love it! <33 School is the same as always..and cheer try-outs are coming up again so thats exciting..as for myself, i've been pretty okay.. i have all my friends (u hoes all know u are! and my boysss thanks for everything og scratch 6 haha) who i love like wow. they've been there for me through everything..and yeah we have been through many problems but somehow we are still here. On the other hand, theres one thing i wish would've gone a little differently but then again i cant control anything...and yeah i'm hurt...i dunno i guess thats just something i need to figure out on my own..i miss what we had but only God knows why things happen..right? ughhhh to much thinking.. xoxo

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Sun, 16 May 2004 19:56:22 GMT

Isnt funnie how right when you think you know a person, you really dont? The girls and I had a talk last night and wow i havent had one like this with them for a while..it was one of those that just continued to branched out to other subjects..it made me realize a lot about the past and present and what might end up happening in the future..I think i know what i want, but i can't have it, not now i dont think..time is the answer to most of my questions..Things keep coming up from peoples past..and i wish i could go back and see the truth..the reality of what had happened and how it might have affected them and not me..unfortunetly it affected me..in both good and bad ways..because on the good side now i believe that i have become a more better person..on the downfall i feel tramatized..i cant continue looking back and reflecting on my past but thats technically impossible when the past continues to come back into the present..i cant ask what i should becuase only time will tell..and no one knows exactly what it is i feel..there is just to much for me to handle at this point in time, and i have no idea who is being honest or who is lying to me..but for now..i am just taking things one day at a time..how i wish i knew what i could do..licy.. on the okay side of things are BEST FRIENDS! ALWAYS!!

.. ♥You Can Fall In Lust, Love Just Happens♥..

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